“A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. ”
Elizabeth Gilbert – Eat, Pray, Love
it’s been a trying month packed with a whole lot of me becoming really reclusive only to find out that, hell I’ve always been stronger than I think I can be, why am I running away? I have to thank my teacher who gave me this book when I turned 21 and similarly, was in this exact same spot – only thing is, I’ve grown a whole lot and definitely stronger than yesterday.
To finally be able to walk out from a shadow of conveniently avoiding the topic and be able to bravely say, well the decision has been made after only much deliberation.. certainly doesn’t rank the highest on my favourite things to do. But if life is going to give me lemons, I had better learn from the rest and make those darn good lemonades!
My greatest weakness as I walk out of this.. is my fear of loneliness and dependency. A whole lot of me always searches for that pillar to complete what I’ve already built and what life has already given me. But somehow, I happen to just be one of those people who always has that cheesy mentality that right now, life has all the beautiful drawings and the best canvas – it just lacks colour..
So while I slowly pick myself up and delve into work and games… no binge drinking!! 😛
“I think I deserve something beautiful.”